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| "Happy"?.. something like it...
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| it's not really a resolution, cuz i don't believe in those. it just happened that it took me a whole year to realize how messed up my mentality about things can be. but one thing i'd like to stay away from is stooping down to the levels of others. yes, they may hurt you, but trying to hurt them in return, or doing what you feel will "make things even" won't undo what they did to you. i'm not putting myself above anyone, cuz i know i'm just as bad as the worst. i just want to better myself, & i think starting off with something little like this is the way to go.
& that's all i feel like sharing. anything else will just be put under private, cuz believe it or not. i'm better than that. (or at least trying)
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| Same shit. Different day.
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| Good day yesterday :). Spent the morning with my wonderful boyfriend. Had our fun as usual, but then he had to go to work. Booo. So then I went over to Mama Vi's house. Wrapped some presents for her. Had our girl talks, then hit up some of the girls to see if they wanted to come over too. Bace ended up coming. I missed her! Had our talks, settled some shit, & everything was great from there. We baked, & ate & ate & ate. I swear, Venus' house is like my dream house. So much foood! Ooh, & her nephew Giovanni is soo cute! Couple hours later, Rachel ended up coming over, but then Venus had to go to class. It was real nice hanging out with all of them again. I never realized how much I missed them, & it feels really good, & some what relieving knowing that I still have them in my life. I'm glad we're able to overcome all that petty bullshit, & focus on what matters most. Drama, or no drama, bottom line, we love each other, & there's no getting around that.
I got home, & waited for my babbyyy to get off work, so we could go bowling. Ahh, it's one of the best feelings when I get to see him, after hours & hours of being away from each other. Yeh, it may not be a long time, so you may be like "wtf?", but we're just so damn accustomed to being with each other the whole day, & we're barely adjusting to this change. It's a good change though. Gives us a chance to miss each other. I love my hardworking man. Baby, I know you may be going through some shit, with the stress that may come along with this new job, & all that stuff that's gone down lately. Just know that I'm here for you. You're my everything, & I love you with all my heart.
Had another one of my panic attacks, or whatever you wanna call it again last night. Don't really wanna get into it. I was too scared to fall asleep, so I called up the homie Jon Tan, cuz he knows how I can get like this. Thanks for staying up w. me & calming me down! I just wish I coulda talked to Cheddie about it, but he was tired, & I wanted him to get his rest.
& as for today. I spent the first half of the day with my baby again. Our last hour together, we knocked the fuck out, & it just sucked having to wake him up, so he could leave me & go to work. Anyway, I ended up going home, instead of bickin it with him at work. Cleaned my room, & did a whole lotta nothing.
Ooh, who watches Real World Denver? I got to watch the last episode that I missed because of bowling. & OMG, drama or whaaat? I LOVE IT! Davis was so out of line for using that word. Yeh, he was mad & drunk, but it's still unacceptable. I don't know, maybe it's just me, I just feel very strongly about that word. I really admire Tyrie, & that other guy(HAHA i don't know his name. he's a super square bear anyway), for being so understanding & forgiving. This season is gonna be good.
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| Haven't hit this up in a while, but i'm too lazy to recap that far back.
So today, just did the usual. Went to Cheddie's. Chilled til he had work. Dropped him off. Went home, cuz everyone was busy. Venus hit me up to go take pics at the studio, but I was boo off that for today. "Christmas present for Cheddie". HAHAHA yeh RIGHT! At home, I basically did nothin, but hear my dad bitch at me, & make a love making CD. haha. Fuck dude, I swear, I can't be home anymore. My dad just keeps finding more & more reasons to bitch at me. It's like he loves stressing himself out. He freaks out over the littlest things. He just LOVES putting me down. Stressing, but a blessing. No matter how messed up he can be towards me, he makes it up by providing me with everything I need. I just needa remember that whenever he starts to piss me off. April came over today too. Had good talks as usual. Then Cheddie called me to go pick him up. For some reason we were REALLY happy to see each other. I think it's cuz we're adjusting to not being with each other the whole day like we would before. Anyway, I picked him up, then went back to his house. Had our fun, as ALWAYS, & now I'm home. I miss you already baby! Where the FUCK did those 4 hours go?
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